ayoko matulog.. natatakot ako na baka d na ako magising.. sobrang inis ko,.,at ilang oras na ako nakakulong sa kwarto ko! nakatanga lang... galit na galit ako! kaya ilalabas ko d2!!!!!

sooobraaaaa!! nanginginig ako at d ako makatype ng maayos!! i have to press beackspace several times para lang tamain yung typo ko.. grrrr

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hindi ko alam... bukas may defense ata ako.. d ko rin sure.. bukas o friday, kasi nauurong naman sya... ewan ko.. nahihiya ako pumasok. parang minsan nararamdaman ko d ako bagay sa psy kasi d ko ma-control sarili ko..kapag nag lelesson nga kami sa cogni lagi akong tinatamaad.. sapul na sapul! pero u see hanggang ngayon duwag parin ako. haaaaayyy~~~

i got a 99% para sa theories of personality na project namin.. first time in my life na nasabihan ako ng isang tao na "im proud of u".. i have never heard that from anyone, not even from my mom.. but i feel that i dont deserve the grade. I did my best there, but its a "personal opinion type of essay" and i bet yah Im not the person who is being describe there.. I keep on telling that people are too afraid to step out on the safe zone and let themselevs be drown on their situation.. but look here! look who is talking??? DO I EVEN DO SOMETHING WITH MY OWN SITUATION?? NO!
  i like the metaphor my prof gave us.. "rocking chair". it does move, but it doesnt move forward. and its embarassing to admit that IAM, IAM A ROCKING CHAIR!

I dont know if i make sense here.. im kinda groggy now.. i just woke up from my bed and i havent eaten ANYTHING.. yes! another hunger strike!

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 but im tired.. really tired.. i know that the only person who could help me is myself...its hard but im fighting, Im struggling thats why im still here... i know this is just another EMO episode in my life.. There are still more to come. XD

ohh i just calmed myself.. looks like im fine now... gaaaahhh

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