it's hard to be fine if you're really not. its so hard... I have to read 300+ pages until sunday.... and its hard to focus. .

 This is a bad timing but I dont have any choice but to keep it inside for a while and study harder. FOCUS FOCUS. I cant be the old me anymore, i cant be that person who is so much affected if a problem comes. I have to be strong this time.. (i hope i can)

I think this is a practice, since I want to work in a clinical setting, I have to learn how to separate emotions from work. I have to. To think that im a psy student, i should master what william james said. "Whatever ur function is, u have to adjust to it" - functional adjustment.

  arrgghhh

 I must be well! i must study!!

 P.S - Im only writing because I have a burden inside me. I have to let it out even only in writing  Scary kaya~ do u know that its not good to sleep when ur mad and very down? ^^ I actually want to cry, but i dont know.. d ako makaiyak~~

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sensei is right... when u r in a relationship you learn so much about urself...

now, I know what do I really want and what are the things I can never tolerate.

1. I want someone much taller than me

2. I can never learn to love someone

3. I hate boys who show me some affection and grabs the oppurunity of my situation.

4. I would rather be in love with a handsome guy than someone who is an asshole and at the same time "PANGET"

5. I hate boys with a huge ego... a  boy who can never say no to other girls cause the situation is a boost for his ego.. (as if ~)

6. Im annoyed with guys who leaves me while im talking

7. Im pissed of with boys who gets mad at me while theyre the ones who did something wrong (fuck u!)

8. I can never tolerate a guy who flirts with other girls while his gf is away (go to hell!)

9. I never believe in words like "im here for u"...

to be c0ntinued